On this blog, there’s this recurring theme, where all my blog post titles are one word. You might ask me why I have this theme. The reason is simple: because I find that one word usually summarizes the meaning of the blog post. Representing blog posts in one word, basically defines who I am.
Life is a journey. More specifically, it’s a journey of self-discovery; it’s a journey where we are struggling to find ourselves. Most of the time, we, as humans, don’t know who we are or who we want to be. Everyone tells us to “be who we want to be”, and to pursue our dreams.
Have you ever felt like this? People are telling you to live your dreams, so you chase down these goals that you’ve had for the longest time. But after a while, you start to think, maybe this isn’t really what I want to do in life.
This is certainly the case for me. After 6 years of writing about celebrity news on A Kid’s Point of View, I thought I had discovered my passion. For a short time, I even worked as a contributing editor for Polished TV, a beauty and fashion blog– where I wrote more celebrity news. I started following TV shows like Entertainment Tonight and eTalk, determined to find more things to write about. I loved it!
But recently, I’ve been thinking about what I want to do with my life. After all, I’m graduating high school in two years. While I was thinking– and, of course, praying– I realized… this celebrity news writing thing isn’t really my passion. I’m not really like those entertainment reporters on MTV.
The thing is; I have to keep it up. I have to keep writing posts about celebrity news, because that’s what the fans want. It’s a blog that seems more like Cosmopolitan or Seventeen Magazine‘s websites. I turned it from a random blog when I was 9 (basically a diary of my life), to a fashion, beauty, lifestyle… and most importantly, celebrity gossip blog. And when I’m writing these posts, I’m not really excited anymore… but I have to act excited about the latest celebrity news.
Take this recent post, as an example. I wrote about Nick Jonas’ new song “Levels” (which is awesome, BTW!), and how he’s performing the song for the first time at the MTV Video Music Awards next week. The opening paragraph went a little something like this: “NICK JONAS IS RELEASING A NEW SONG IN THREE DAYS!!!!! OMG! I’M SCREAMING RIGHT NOW!!!”
Do you really think I would genuinely write something like that? I mean, yes I was really excited when I heard about his new song– and I probably would have reacted this way in the past 😉 … but these days, I certainly wouldn’t scream, “OMG! I’m freaking out!” There’s this sense of false enthusiasm in the post.
Now, if you asked me to write about how I interpret “Levels” as a Christian song, or how it connects to me (or what I think of the lyrics, “Yeah, heaven can’t reach us / Yeah, we’re high-fiving Jesus” 😉 ), I would have no problem doing that.
Even a music review that I wrote, about Nichole Nordeman’s recently-released song “The Unmaking“, doesn’t seem like something I would normally write. If I wrote an editorial about that song here, I would’ve written an essay about how this song connects to my personal life and my relationship with God.
Writing about celebrity gossip just isn’t my passion anymore.
I would much rather write about inspirational and motivational stuff that uplifts people… sort of like what I’m doing here. I love what I’m doing with the signs, and how I’m encouraging people by sharing God’s Word.
Don’t get me wrong, I still love eTalk and all those other celebrity gossip TV shows… But in recent months, I’ve discovered what I really want to do; I’ve finally realized what my passion is.
And, to achieve my goals of encouraging people– including myself– even further, I’ve started a new wordpress blog (officialannamarier.wordpress.com), where I’m writing about anything.